I think this is very true. My whole life I have been more-or-less able to get what I want by working harder, training more, listening better, enduring longer, accomplishing faster…
But, I am quickly learning there are things that we can’t control. Things that we can’t work harder for or change ourselves. We wait for babies to come and cancer to heal seasons to change and someone to fall in love with us and heck, for that really dense beer bread I was put in the oven to bake all the way through. Sometimes we get what we’re waiting for and sometimes we don’t.
Last night, we went to a benefit concert for Real Hope for Haiti. It was amazing. Aaron played. He and Jamie are waiting for a four year old that they met and adopted two years ago to come home to the US. Two years of arduous paperwork has likely been lost and they’re not sure what happens now.
Aaron wrote a song last year about getting their two kids home from Haiti. the two-year-old girl came home in October, and they’re still waiting for Amos, the four-year old boy. Here’s the video:
No matter how hard we work, there are a lot of things that we can’t control. There are a lot of things we just have to wait for. Just like Martin Luther King Jr. waited for people to gain a sense of urgency and open their minds, we too shall wait. And we should be patient, because as noble as his dreams were, we are still waiting for some of them to happen.
On that note, I will try to work harder at things that I can affect. Like wooing the Labor & Delivery nurses to like me with chocolate. I made fudgy, cheesecake-y brownies that will freeze well and I wrapped them individually and stacked them in the freezer so that I can grab them when we head to the hospital. I hope they work.
Chocolate Chip Cheesecake Brownies
adapted from Smitten Kitchen
12 T. butter (1 1/2 sticks), cut into 12 pieces
4.5 ounces unsweetened chocolate, chopped
1 1/2 cup sugar
1/2 t. salt
3 large eggs
2 teaspoons pure vanilla extract
1 cup all-purpose flour
1 T. cinnamon
12 ounces cream cheese, softened
1/2 cup sugar
1/2 t. salt
2 large egg yolks
1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
1 cup semisweet chocolate chips
Make brownie batter: Put oven rack in middle position and preheat oven to 350°F. Butter a 9×13-inch baking pan. Heat butter and chocolate over a double-boiler by placing the mixing bowl over simmering water over moderately low heat, whisking occasionally, just until melted. Remove from heat and whisk in sugar, eggs, vanilla, and salt until well combined. Whisk in flour and cinnamon until just combined and spread in baking pan.
Make cheesecake batter: With an electric mixer, beat cream cheese until soft. mix in sugar, salt, vanilla and egg yolks. Dollop over brownie batter, sprinkle chocolate chips on top, and then swirl in with a knife or spatula.
Bake brownies: Bake until edges are slightly puffed and center is just set, about 35 minutes. Chill in the fridge and then cut carefully. Serve cold.
I hope they like me!